|Chris and I ushering on our 15th anniversary.|
Like I said, the performances were over the top super. Josie performed as a Flying Monkey and a Munchkin. There were a total of 11 shows. We had tickets for two performances, I worked in the "munchkin room" (the room where all the munchkins/flying monkeys stayed and dressed during the show....about 40 kids) three times, and I served as an usher at all the remaining performances. Chris was in revival, so he joined me as an usher during two of the shows.
This was a wonderful time to examine my unsocialness....or introversion. For two weeks, I've
|Josie, Leah, and the most amazing Lion ever.|
Have you read the book Quiet, by Susan Cain? If not, you should. Whether you find yourself hiding in a corner at events strewn with people, or love, love, love to talk to people, it's a wonderful book. She speaks a lot regarding the fact that although some people may seem like extroverts, they may actually be introverts. I'm not going to go into detail....sometimes I start writing and get to a point that I have no idea where I'm going and I don't know how to stop it. So, I'll stop now and get back to the shows. Just read her book.
First, the "munchkin room" was exhausting, but at least I really didn't have to socialize. It seemed appropriate for me to just sit there and help kids as needed. No awkwardness in sitting alone....the way I like it.. In saying that, I must say, I was thrilled when my last night in the munchkin room came around. 40 kids is about 39 more than I can handle. I'm used to one...and one calm, mature, peaceful one. Power to all the moms who volunteered to stay in there for each performance!
|Can you see the crowd behind them....I wish I took a pic of it. Crazy.|
What I did not like were the nights ushering when there were many volunteers socializing in the
lobby during the performances. I "hate, hate, hate" (quoting the Wicked Witch for any of you who saw the show) trying to make casual conversation. I don't know where to step in, which circle to I make my way to, do I step in a circle at all, do I just sit back and look awkward by myself (which I would generally prefer)? I ended up going to my car and reading during the "down" time. It was a smart move. Now, the nights when there were just a few of us in the lobby, those nights I liked. Just a few of us quieter people. I
also liked the nights when my husband was there---because he is my
security blanket---and I don't care who is around when he is there...Chris
can do the talking.
|Flattering photo with our almost invisible"monkey kisses".|
I have found that the people I am most comfortable around are people who tend to be like me. They are ok saying a few words, then just sitting quietly. Those are the times I don't feel awkward, when I feel the other people like not talking as much as I do. I realize, although I am friends with some amazing extroverted people (one I married), it takes me longer to really open up to those people. Even with my husband, we were friends for years before we dated. Now he is my very best friend...so I'm not saying I can't be friends with an extrovert, I'm just more uncomfortable with their outgoing personalities to begin with. I'd prefer to all just sit in silence and pretend that's how it is supposed to be....we can talk later.
Overall, I loved the social situations when I had a job to do. Tell me to do something specific, don't make me socialize...and I like the public. But, and it's a big but (so I cannot lie), I need to decompress from socializing much more than my husband. Right now is the first couple of hours I have had alone in weeks......and I REALLY, REALLY, needed it. Chris thrives on being with others, I thrive on being alone. I don't mind being around people, in fact, I really like it most times, as long as I have time to recover after the fact.
I think I still need a few more days of quiet before stepping out in public again. Probably won't happen, but it would be nice. How are you in social situations?
|Nice, quiet, peaceful lobby.|